I didn't realize, like a speed of light, how this 6 months passed by. In a nick of time, a days slip into weeks, weeks turn into months and soon months will transform into years. Calendars are changing by leaps & bounce...
Away from all, far from Indian soil & after loving my parents, my siblings, my spouse, my children, my friends, now I have started loving myself.
In certain things, age has mellowed me down, in others I have become more aggressive. Sometimes I find myself acting very wise and sometimes I just go crazy. Certain issues will have me speaking vociferously whereas at others I just shrug and remain silent in this unknown & new environment.
Within this 6 month, I have realized that I am no more “Atlas" and the world does never rest on my shoulders.
Way back in India, I used pay autowalla and walk away without waiting for a change. The extra money might bring a smile on his face. After all he is toiling much harder for a living than me. Here everything's online so I can't raise my hands to stop cab or shuttle. No human touch at all.
Many times, my papa talk to me same childhood instances repeatedly, so now I have stopped telling him that he had already narrated that same story many times. After all, his repeatative story makes him walk down to his memory lane and relive the past.
At work place, I have learn not to correct americans, even when I know they are wrong because i feel that the onus of making everyone perfect is not on me. Peace is more precious than perfection so I prefer keep mum. I give compliments freely and generously to everyone. After all its a mood enhancer not only for the recipient but also for me.
Here, I have learnt not to bother about my creased shirt or mismatched shirt & tie because my pleasant personality & smiling face speaks louder than my appearance. I also don't bother if my beard has grown & whites hair depicted my old age. I don't bother of fine lines are showing on my forehead Because beauty of my soul outshines the beauty of my face in my 40's..
In this different land, I have learnt that its better to drop the ego than to break a relationship because one's ego will keep aloof whereas with relationships, I will never be alone so i am connected with everyone.
This life taught me & have learnt to live each day as if it were the last day. After all, one day.....it might be the last day, no one knows the future.
Now every moment, I am doing what makes me happy because I am responsible for my happiness, and I owe it to me.
And I am loving the new in me.....in this new land of opportunity !!!
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